"MYSELF".....such a simple primary schooler composition, that was what came into my mind immediately. And i said to myself exaggeratingly, i could easily write a book worth of words. and yet, this composition made me think the whole day, what do i know exactly about myself??could i even write 100 words about myslef??what should i write??what coould i even write???

i mean, im FORM 6 for gawd sakes!i can't put "my name is...i am bla bla years old.." or describe myself.....i don't even know how i look like....SERIOUSLY!!my hair colour changes everytime i look at it....dependig on the "brightness" outside and inside the house. i don't even noe what is the colour of my eyes!dark brown??brown??black??light black?? (is there such a thing as light black???????hahahahaha)i don't know whether i am tall or average or just right. whether i am fat or curvacious or chubby or whatever!!

don't get me started about my hobbies!i like everything really.....but i am never good at anything...i am not talented...i am just average...just OK!seriously serious!!swimming?basketball?football?singing?dancing?acting?archery?pool?snooker?running?badminton?talking?play music instruments?writing?shopping?(hmmm...is shopping included??it is a good thing for someone who can spot something worth buying or spot a good bargain!and even to have the interest to hunt in between shops and such! hahaha)

well....i like writing and reading..but that would not get me anywhere...not far that is!all i'l do is sit on my chair and write or lie down somewhere comfortable and read.

people do not want average or just OK people!!they want perfection!!at least talented people! i'm not being this modest or foolish person who is not grateful for what she's got. I just don't know who i really am..i am a confused girl who is trying to become this grown-up woman.

all i know is i am a moodish kind of girl. very sensitive. and very headstrong and i change a lot, my thinking and my taste. undecisive....that's ME! :)
take for instance my music taste. right now i like soul music but a few weeks ago i went for rock and the weeks before, oldies, and before that pop...and it goes on forever!
i am a lazy person....i'll do something perfectly only when i like it and when i feel like it. and i don;t know why i can't take a lot of things seriously. i know that will take me down in life. and my mum keeps on asking me to grow up already and change my attitude! i will.....when i feel like it.....
i am a spoiled brat....yesh i am....well, only when my sister is not with me..cause it is always about her first. i'm okay with that. cause i will get what i want after that. hahahahahhaha....i'll just go shopping!!and i won't be mad or jealous....*sigghhh happily..* hahahahaha.......

ooowwwhh owwwhhh...one thing for sure, i really love animals. and i will be mad and sad if one animal got hurt or being hurt by someone. i would even hurt that human being back. they'll be black listed off my list for sure! and i can remember one human who did that and everytime i look at his face i feel disgusted!

aannnyyywaaaaayyyy~~.....talking bout school....it's a refuge for me. a place where i can be whatever i want to be, without being the real me. eventhough that makes me sound like i am fake, but i like being a fake. it's is just hard being me. (told u i am confused and i am making myself confusing...) it is not about lack of love or attention, i said already that i can fill those gaps with shopping and things...really....call me materialistic all u want...i don't care.....hahaha....