hmmmm.......hmmmm....
where to start??????
i was quite curious...even furious really when we had "this lecture" which indicates what a woman should be and why they whould be something like dat, u know wat i mean.....
i was quite shock too when a woman herself actually agrees to this and believes in her being a lot lower than a male being.....
what happened to the waorld being equal....isn't that the same as saying that white is better than black?????
this is the 21st century and gender discrimination should not be a bother a tiny bit.....
i do not believe in marriage (im sorry to say) as it seems that a gurl's world revolves only being somebody acceptable to be married and being married......
look at my mum, she is an intelligent human being even more than my own dad and she is stuck here watching TV when she could enjoy herself growing old...
a woman is still looked at as the other sex who has to wash, tidy and cook eventhough the society would not admit to it.....
i noe a man is considered to be the leader of the family, but i think that is just a MYTH!!!...
my mum is the one organising and dealing with the family most of the time and my dad only has to supply the money......but God knows why my dad is the one getting all the credit...
i refuse to be strapped down and get "settled" or in short marry to a being which thinks us women as lower than them....
i don't want them to think us only as beautiful......
i don;t want them to even stereotyping us and comparing us with other women....
i am only protecting my right as a human being.......
i don't want the world to change...i just want me being heard as a human who is the same level as the opposite sex.....
we are capable and i still can't get over that a woman actually stereotyped her own kind being the soft one........cheh.......aaarrrgggghhhh.....
and my own family actually said indirectly that me being a girl is weak, when i was asked what i planned to be, i said i did aplly for pilot and what did he say???he said "don't, girls are way better off being a teacher".....can u belive that????!!!!!!...
i was SHOCKED!!!!!and i said i have the "standard" that they want being a pilot, i was only too young....i think i was even better than most of the guys there...i was called immature, but i think i was more mature than any of them....look at what i had experienced.......if only they knew.....they would not even want to think wat i had went through....but still i was the weaker one.......A TEACHER!!!..now im even more conviced to prove to close minded people that we may be inside a "weak body" but we r strong inside.......

sooooo.......latest deets of my life......
i went for a school trip to bandar....UBD,"the" Mall and Lapau...
it was fun really....which beats the boredom of being inside a dull and really looooongggggg classroom...
arah ubd we met up with chris, and i really missed her, and she hasn't change much since last year,but gurlllfreeennn ur getting much too small for your own good...i guess because of all the walking around that HUGE place...seriously,we did walk around the place and it was tiring let me tell ya.....
and that taught me not to underestimate the Uni...huhuhu...talk about humungus...owh well....
coz the only "uni" i ever went to was my sis's place and i don't even think that is a "uni"...hahahah.....i really wanted to see the hostel and where chriz now "lives"...however, i noe that was impossible.....
and we went inside the library and it was as big as "SAS"...seriously......huhuhu...
now i feel like im really from a "kampong"...hahahaha......
soooooo...after that we went to "the" mall....the usuals...makan2...makan2...and makan2...hahahah.....and i lurved walking round with Yonne and Armah.....gila gila bah kame tiga....hahahaa.....
let's do it again on Monday...hehehe
and after that we went to lapau....which is a place where "big" functions which includes His Majesty are held...it was niiiiceeeee~~~......and that is all i can say...and grand....heheh....

burst piczzz

we were supposed to be "angry" and make mad faces this time....but helll noooo.....keluar mcm sorang sedih...and dua orang bangang...apa punya models leeerrr.........
i like this picture.....SILLY FACES.....hehehehe.....and yessshhhh TOTALLY silly....hehehehe......it was soooo much fun i got totally addicted to it sampai sangal kale Kidah and Yonne...i hope not....hehehe....
yeeesshhh Kidah lick me again.....noooootttt....Kidah honestly you look totally out of place gurlfren....hahahaha....but funny lah the three of us looking up at the same spot at the exact same time and we didn't even planned it....."model instinct"....wawawawawa...........
and yeah..i agree...after looking at the above pics...this is the most boring one...hehehehe.......but look how happy Kidah is....i know, i know Kid you like taking pictures with me...besa lah.....hahahaha....kambang ayu eyh.......

reminiscing.....

i was just reminiscing about the fun days a few years ago.....before i was close friends with Chriz and yonne and everyone else who mattered....the time when i was best friends with Azrina, Sharon, Des and Celes...those were really good times.....i can't believe how everything could change sooo easily and soooo fast and i'm really glad that everything is OK now eventhough it's not back to the way we were......cause i'm sooooo sure i wouldn't want to change even the tiniest bit.........at least i would know how they actually did matter in my life....
OK ayu stop it....you sound like you are gonna collapse and die in a second....
welll....it's just that i kinda felt left out when i heard they made a small reunion between my old BFs for Desiree........it was really sad,you know and i felt a tinnie bit left out..to keep it simple.....how could a group of really close friends promising to never even think of breaking apart could actually go our separate ways....and it shows that as we grow old we could grow further apart as wel.....i'm not blaming anyone....just remembering......
but then if i was still with them i wouldn't even get the chance to know really good friends like my present friends........
the world goes round and round.......as the wheels of the bus go round and round.......
good times....good times.....

it hurts soooooo much that i could not bear it any longer...huhhuhuhuhu....
am not talking bout anything else but my hand!!...my right hand leeerrr to be exact.....
naaaawww...it's just that yesterday i played badminton kan and den brabish kan smash rah my brother baaahhh...hahaha...kan tunjuk terer leeerrr....kale nya nah tulah ayu, ayu.....cramp tia.....
i mean it felt a bit okay this morning, but then i had this daym history exam and i had to write reaaaalllllyyyyy fast and looooooooonnnggggg...mana inda kan putus rasa tangan ku baaahhh....huhuhuhu.....my hand was sweating like hell and it was literally shaking like a leaf...and it still is shaking right now as we speak....wawawaw....
i kinda like writing essays cause i like writing...and i know it's a History essay but i ave it a kinda "twist" and TRIED to make it sound real interesting...and for me it was good....hahahah....perasan.....
i could not even lift my bloody hand after the test apa lage kan angkat my bloody files!!eeerrrgghhhhh........i should have rented a locker!!........and i asked sharon to massage my hand....isn't she sweet....yeeeeaaaahhhhh.........it felt a lot better....manja jua tangan ku nie.....ahahahaha............
bah bah...i try to finish my maths hw first kaaaayyy.......