okkk..i just realised how degrading that word is!

what word??

THAT word! *eseehh..malas kan sabut* pikir lah sendiri...hahahaha

aku ingin engkau ada disini,

menemani ku saat sepi

on a different note,sorry for no updates at all..berhabok sudah my blog.it's not that i'm lazy and i don't have the time.SHIT,i have all the time in the world,it's just that my day's been all a routine.

we're doing practicals on the cessna 150C and now engine change on the whirlwind.sekseehhhh~

it's all work and no play for little miss Aayunni.and she is getting dull.that's life.
NOPE,that ain't life,that's my choice.so,i'll deal with being boring.at least i feel safe.
owh,and a bit concerned about exams.not really,pasal i've started reading my notes sudah,just that,when exams' near,meaning bye-bye perth is near too!

SCARY, I TELL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

aku inda mao balik,tapi aku mao balik,tapi inda jua,tapi ao jua....

insane squared!

i've been losing my mind lately.
kenapakan tu???!!am i stressed out???am i on the verge of a serious nervous breakdown???please,NO!i am only 20!i should be able to cope right,i think.hahahaha.

i don't think im on a midlife crisis,coz seriouslyy,if i am,then i'll be like dead when i reach 40 or something?talk about a short lifespan.thank you.i feel old.i feel like i'm rotting my life away in this cold and empty place.

there.i'm done looking at everything HALF-EMPTY.

i'm back to being my cheerful self.i hope.there comes mr.doubt back!GO AWAY!

to fill my empty weekend,ive spent watching supernatural and gossip girls alternately.and why u may ask,why alternately?coz i'm just plain insane??HAH!oh tidak,just to spice things up.ok that sounds even more crazyy..hahaha.yes.if i put it down in paper,it does sound crazyy.but,that's the only reson i could come up with at the top of my head.BOWH!

anyhoooo..i hope des-des can come over next weekend or whichever weekend she chooses,coz if not,i'll be dragging my ass to her place.hehehehe.mao jua ku meliat at.andrew's atu.well,i want to go to the aquarium,but it's closed in the winter time.boh-renngggg.

and aku mao liat liverpool arah anfield,tapi since liverpool sucks big time,it's become a half-hearted event.HAH!half??more like an eightTH!i wanna go somewhere,and not waste me time in lil old perth.let's spend some moneyyhh!!hahaha..who's with me!!

contradictions anyone??

i cannot sleep!my eyes hurt when i try to close them lama2.
i mean it's good that i can't sleep so that i can revise for tomorrow,my brain works better in the early mornings.

HOWEVER,my brain tonight is resenting everything i try to put into it.
so here i am,with my eyes wide open,waiting and waiting.
entah apakah aku wait.

my head feels like it's been tumbled in the washing machine.
round...round..round..round...

OK..STOP ALREADYYY!!aku mao tidur tapi inda mao tidur pasal aku mao belajar tapi utakku inda mao belajar iya mau tidur and mata ku pun inda mao tutup. *pouting*
my eyes are contradicting with my brain.work together now guys.exam's tomorrow and we need to be bright and clear and fresh in the morning.

maybe coz i watched this video after i woke up from my nap.yes,my nap was from 11pm til 2am.i call that a nap.HAHAHA.
soo the video was super duper sad and reminds me of atok.i cried obviouslyy,but i just don't know why i cried my eyes out.the situation was not the same.maybe the grandfather in the video reminds me of my grandfather.

i hate being so far away from home at times like this.i wish i could catch a plane and hug everyone!!saying i love them so much before it's too late for any of us.coz regret is an ugly thing and it haunts me to the core!
aku mao hug atok and tell him i'm gonna make him proud and never to disappoint him.and thank him for all the things he'd done for us.and appreciating all the love he gave me.

ok.......that was not supposed to be part of the post of the day.but since ive subconciously typed all my thoughts out.why not.

good early morning people.I DO love each and everyone of you.

new year!

HAH!i said stuff in my last blog being a person who just doesn't care.BUT I DO!
it's just pathetic celebrating this day alone.HAHAHA.maybe some of you,or a lot of you think "yeah,she deserves being alone." and maybe i do.
but no!!i will get of my ass later,and find some place to wait through to 12midnight.well,if there's fireworks.kihkih.

just don't let self pity get to you!it ain't pretty~

resolutions?

hahahaha..that's my face really whenever i say "i miss you" to you.
why do i always make that face?macam tah the person im saying those words to can see my face.messages and calls jua ngannya.HAHAHAHA.
maybe i thought it'll have an even more effect when saying with a pouty face.maybe even more satisfactory.

ANYYHHHOOOOOOOOO....less than two days till new year.
and and and and i'm not spending/celebrating it this year,thanks to the awesome amount of revision i have!
lagipun takde mood lah nak spend new year,let's just say any other minute,hour or day is exactly the same to me.no difference at all.
what had happened,happened.if i wanna make a resolution,i can make one now!and stick with it,i don't have to wait for a NEW year...do i??
anyway,if i do make one,one resolution,i'll never stick to it at all,and things in the near future will either distract me,or influence me to not follow my aim for the year.

okay ayu,let's just stick to the real reason.
NO POINT!!i'm not saying that 2009 was a bad year,eventhough i say i'm a person who sees a glass half full,but who am i joking,i don't ,for me the glass is EMPTY,eventhough it's full in front of me,i still say it's frigging empty!
come on!if everyone was soo positive life would be dull!BOH-REEENNGGG!
i sound like a bitter person,but im not.

2009 has been a year.
just a year.just 2009.like the previous year,2008,2007,2006.
and next will be 2010.

the only thing is i have to remember to change the year at the end of the dates i write on papers,etc.
and i think 2010 will be a year i start writing 21/09/2010 whenever im asked about my DOB like every other year.21/09/2009 in 20009.HAHAHAHA.i always make that silly mistake!

however,

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODEEYYH!
HAVE A GREAT 2010 AHEAD~

vain much~

vain much~

VERY!

anyway,i like taking pictures with my webcam pasal my camera's dead!sudah tah payah2 orang antar kan memory card kali dead tia.haiissshh.and my hp's cable to the lappy thingamajig is gone,i dunnoe where.*or aku malas cari carefully*hahaha.

soooo i resorted to webcam-whoring tah saja.which is fun,coz the picture above made me look like it's a bit of a cartoon-ish picture,and looked like i had something on my face,macam blusher,but actually i just got out of the shower tuuu..naaahh kedapatan main gambar2 time abis mandi.*berbaju sudah ah GILA!*

so tomorrow kami ke aberdeen.and di perth sudah snow nya really thick i was like WHOA!atu tabal when i woke up this morning.i don not want to imagine how thick the snow is in aberdeen.HAH!i just hope the train's not cancelled or anything.kalau catu boring tuuuuu!!come on!!

that;s the view from my bedroom window.

i was like,what would the owner of the car think when he sees his car drowned in snow.HAHAHA.

thank god i don't own a car here.waaaaaahhh.scareee!

*DUSH DUSH*

WACHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that was how i went shopping this morning.HAHAHAHA.eksen kuu.

naaahhh..perth isn't that crazyy..it felt like one of the normal discounted days saja.no such rush or craziness in big cities.i even dare say that it's CALM.

anyway,i didn't shop much,i mean i did not shop like how ur supposed to shop during boxing days.

but i did find a great bag!i just love this bag soo much,i got it from river island.

yes,as u can see it IS HUMONGOUS!!and dat's the point of a bag right,should fit every single thing!i'm thinking of using this when i get back since it's that big,and plan to buy another bag for this 3 months.LAWA WAH BAGS RIVER ISLAND AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!

bought 2 wallets,3 lipgloss,2 lipsticks,makeup thingies,clothes.

 and that's all.

im saving a bit of my money to be spend di aberdeen ani,and den some for liverpool maybe.IF jadi puuunnn~AAAHHH..which reminds me of something.

ok,i'm back.i'll have to do that SOMETHING later since the internet is being GILA right now.why's that so i might add~HAHAHAHA.

anyway,i ate wedges and burger without the roti just now for dinner that is,pasal my appetite isn't really good.i dunnoe.maybe coz i'm alone,that's why.coz when i crashed arah rumah wanie and nins i ate like i haven't eaten for days!we had nasi,den chips den soto lagi tu,but then today since i'm alone,i forgot to eat breakfast before heading to town to shop,then malam ni lupa makan,kana suruh makan baru makan.HAHAHA.and when i ate all i thought of was throwing up.food doesn't look so good when you're alone i guess.

i think it's a good thing,dapat jua turun berat badan,but this is not normal for me!ayu does not NOT eat! though i do drink tea like im addicted to it.entah lah.im sick.HAHAHA.

ok i lied,i just ate the wedges,i didn't even touch the burger!just thinking about it makes me feel like the wedges are threatening to come back out of my mouth!NO!i am not bulimic nor am i anorexic!HAHAHAHAHA.FARRRR from being those two.

maybe im not used to being alone.

no,not clingy clingy alone..........................................................................................................

owh eff it!people don't understand.

merry xmas!!

i love the snow outside.
now we'll have a white christmas.YAY!!!

but for all the prettiness and all the awesomeness of snowing,there comes a terrible price,which is COLD!!!!i have to say,i dislike the cold soo much.
i'm not even on my bed coz it's so cold there,maybe pasal iya dekat window atu kali.
i've resorted to sitting on the floor next to the heater,which isn't working so well since the heater isn't very hot.HAIYA MAAAA!

anyway,because of the cold,my brain feels sluggish.but i managed to do some 20 minutes revision.KIH KIH.JUST 20minutes thank you very much.and i think nothing has entered into my brain,it just felt like my hands were moving without me demanding them to.therefore,nada tah apa2 inside my head.

i have this coughing fit still and it seems to be getting worst!i hate it sooo much!i have no mood to eat,coz my throat feels sore,but my tummy is on the brink of becoming gastric.SERBA SALAH LAH JUAAAAA!!

HOWEVEEERRRRR,

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!
HAVE A GREAT DAY TOMORROWWWWWWW~

boooo

maybe i'm not as adventurous as before.
maybe that's coz im getting older.TUA KU SUDAH.
datang selalu penyakit malas ku anie,that's why my favourite past-time now is sitting at home,doing nothing.

oorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

maybe,it's not me at all,maybe it's the weather.it's like ssoooo cold,i know last year it's as cold,but now im affected by the coldness easily.
i have this terrible chesty cough that it feels like my whole throat is trying to come out.SAKIT!

and it's so sad,coz it's snowing prettily outside,but here i am stuck at home,being sick and weak.
i nearly passed out in front of the house yesterday night when i got back from tesco.my head was spinning and my legs gave up on me,but thank god,si meerul was with me,or else i would have just AMPAI2 di tangga atu.HAHAHAAHA.

yes,that's the story of my life.

anyway,i got back from london yesterday,yesterday.and i loved every minute of it.wait,it's kind of a bitter sweet feeling coz i hate the polluted air and the water tastes like shit!not shit shit,just crappy!
but it's good to have met great people along the way.rindu rasanya riuh malam2 atu.now,i feel lonely here.hahaha.si benny and si jar saja sama ku cakap.*doi ma si ayu minta kesian.kihkih*


pictures up in facebook but none from my camera since my camera's being its effed up self.all distorted and such.entah lah kenapa.

bah goodnight my dears.i need to start revising or else....................................................................

colourful juaa!

 

YES!MY ROOM!

let's just say,i am not the tidiest person alive.hahahaha.especially when it's time to pack.i get sooooooo disoriented that my mind is not on packing at all,it'll be like thinking of something else.in the course of packing,i managed to squeeze in some shopping.and bought 5 pieces of things!

and looking at the state of my INCREDIBLY EFFED UP room,i don't think 5 pieces will make any difference.HHAHAHAHAHA.

and i could fit 16 dresses,3 shirts and 2 bags in a small bag.the bag im using for our trip.i was like WHOOAAA!i didn't realize there were a lot of things in that small bag.

and i can't bear the thought of not bringing any of them back in brunei.HUWAAAAAAA!

anyway,im away for 5 days tomorrow.so don't miss me too much,but i'll be in lil old perth during christmas and new year.with books and notes and essays under my nose.

AVALANCHE!!!!!!

to kidah

kidah,
i think this was the headphone that i saw rah kadai atuuu.well,at that it's 49.99 but when i visited their website it's only 30++pounds.and it says free delivery.i don't know whether it's free delivery outside UK.u check the website out then babe,

http://hmv.com/hmvweb/directQuery.do?Ntt=skullcandy+headphones&No=0&searchType=0&pagingOptionSelect=24&N=0&Nr=AND(OR(RecordSource%3aPP%2cRecordSource%3aDP)%2cNOT(ProductAdultFlag%3aY))&adultFlag=false&rid=1257583A61AA&Ntk=Products&Nty=1

*copied and pasted from the website.kihkihkih

christmas tree?!

i'm a dreamer,and i am gonna continue dreaming.


i miss christmas in KL!i just love their decorations especially the big christmas tree in KLCC.

perth has nice christmas deco,but it's not enough for me to join in the christmas mood.it doesn't even feel like december here.WHERE IS THE SNOW?!

sudah ku mencari si awang snowman ani.bertapok tia iya.booooooooooo!!
and this morning,i thought the salt which is used to prevent people slipping on the sidewalks was SNOW.and i was excited and i went to jude going "IS THAT SNOW??!!". no,that's SALT!and i even thought that the bubbles from cleaners'window soap was SNOW.

yes,i AM THAT desperate!hah!

well,i did get MELTED SNOW...hahaha....RAIN!

sooooo..this weekend i'm planning to crash through edinburgh to stalk their christmas trees.kih kih.
it sounds exciting,and i won't accept anyone ruining my expectations!so if you're not here to join in my happeyh mood,then leave and never come back!pasal kau KILLJOY and i don't think i like you!hehehehe.