farewell party amin

from left= zaza, zati, ayu, yonne....
amin and "dasar penipu"....sorry, i seriously don't knoe his name...hahaha.....azrina yg panggil ya dat name...so now it's stuck lah, that his name is "dasar penipu"....i pity him...hahahaha....nyway, on the cake was "minah, lurve cabin crews".....serious!!!...the cabin crews are me, azrina and yonne......planning dah awal....after f6 kan join cabin crews......would'nt that be interesting to watch~~....
from left= yonne, azrina, vela, nisah, ayu.....it's the St. ANgela's group that day......i always have lots of fun with SAS gurls....i donnoe y......hehehehe......and im telling you, its hard to find friends like them.......eventhough we had our differences in the past, things managed to work well in the end.......kewl eyh....

thought of the day.......
how come gurls who do not deserved to be liked gets lots of guys...when here i am considered to be a good preson...nada tia......weellllll,persan nya aku ckp diri baik..hahahaha...
why why why why????

and people take my natural unseriousness...sooooo seriously......huhuhuhu.......i mean, it's fun flirting and having fun looking at guys, buyt that doesn't mean that i want to marry them.......hel-lo!!!!!!..........

nytie nyt people~~

why does good friends tend to fade away soooo quickly.....they pass us like wind.....without knowing that they actually had an impact in our lives....and if they do stay...time would pass so quickly as if our lives were fastforwarded and our time spent together would be THAT short......2 years felt like 2 months and 2 months feels like 2 weeks.......

we had a farewell party for a dear friend of ours yesterday......i've known him only for a few months, but he is a good friend.....soooo, i was thinking of dedicating this post about him and putting our farewell pictures, but this stooopid lagging thing..ishhh...time anie jua ya kan belabih....gawd~~...hahahaha......

nway....he was a good ps friend.....just like one of us....us. weird st.angela's girls,that is why he clicked with us girls perfectly unlike any other boys.....he is fun.....

bah eyh.........
mwackkkzzzz poeple........lurve ya.......*big kiss on screen*

so...here i was eating my luch after school......engrossed soo much coz being that hungry...then, my mom shoved me postcards from thailand and i was estatic i'm telling you......overly joyed....
i mean hel-lo....who isn't after receiving thier first ever postcards,i thought it was form "postcrossing" kali nya.....ish ish ish...it was from my own father..but hey ayu, don't complain much, at least my dad remembers my so- called-latest-hobby....hehehehe.......
my dad told me that he practically threatened the hotel people to send me postcards back here in brunei..........
now i'm waiting for one from malaysia.....it's form postcrossing....sooo excited nya saya....eventhough form malaysia...but it's the postcards that count...hahahah

i'm having a slight stomach ache roght now coz yesterday i was stuffing my face with sushi...hahahahah....my sister's boyfriend belanja...so hell yeah, i didn't want to miss this opportunity(heheh),so i was like ordering this...eating that...until my pants were too tight....and in the car on the wway hme, i had to open my belt...hahahaha...paloi paloi.....i don't knoe,every time i went to the japanese restaurant i always tend to eat soo much..i mean...i love japanese food that much...hahaha...the next time he's belanja-ing....i want to try korean food lage......ooowwhhhh.....their food look so nice when they eat it in korean dramas kan kan kan.........

gawd~~.....esok phisics test.....i am sooo lazy kan blajar...coz u knoe.....if i study pun fail jua maseh kan....sooo...what's the point......at least i'm happy that i got the highest for history...i knoe i shouldn't be sooo bangga...but hey at least wah.....for a first timer....hahahaha

cioazzzz.............

i just read kidah's blog and i have to disagree about her saying that she dilikes dreams.....at night..and im not trying to be yellow-minded here....not wet dreams hel-lo!!!hahahahha....so yeah,i lurve dreams...you know when we were young and our mum's would be like "ayu,wash your legs before going to sleep so that you won't have nightmares"........remember????
but now that i'm a teenager and stuff, my mum wouldn't bug me no more about those stuff.....so every night...after brushing my teeth i wouldn't wash my feet!!!terrible right.....but hey people have their flaws...hahahaha..soooo...i did all that cause why you ask...weelllll....that is coz i WANT to have nightmares and dreams.......it's like my very own dreamland and i could be anyone.......and i found out a way to "control" what i want to dream about.....before i fall asleep i would concentrate on one thing and one thing only.......weelll....that's just me,it's not a talent or whatever coz i always hear that dreams are just like your sub-conscious thoughts.......soooo.....you get the picture right????hehehe...it's fun........
my number one dream that i REALLY love is when falling from somewhere high and you feel like you're in a roller coaster....ooooohhh...the rush....luuurve it~~~......aaahhhhhh.........

right now im suck reading "the rebel fairy". it's really an interesting story.......it's cute!!!...one thing i like about reading is that there is no limit to my imagination....which is sometimes stfled when i watch movies........sooo....this book im reading is about two fairies that made mischief and changed the lives of 4 adults........change is not a right term actually.....those two troublemakers made those 4 lives into a tangled web........i couldn;t stop laughing......it's THAT good......i knoe!!!...hahahaha.........

sooo....gtg.......
mwackkkzzz.......

your eyes....
when i met your gaze
i yearned to look even moe
but that look, who is it for?

so much that i need to say
to you, i'm sorry it's not today
you make me shy
i couldn' try
to talk to you, to smile at you

cause you're right for me
how long it took me to see
that you and I, we're meant to be

thought of the day

fat and ugly....y being fat is always connected to being ugly????
i never understood that ever....i mean....y????? being skinny as a plank is beautiful???i dun think sooo....its discrimination....prejudice...ufair to the plus size society....though i am now comfortable with my own body,however after watching tv and magazines and stuff i sumtyms feel uncomfortable in this body of mine.....
i hate that......
evethough they press on saying that nomore below size 0 models and totally saying big is beutiful...its all like not a reality...its like just people saying what other people likes to hear.........hahahahahaha.......
and also being big is connected to people who are lazy and stuff........gawd......hel-lo!!!!...
like me im big because ilike food...hahahaha....im obsessed....but im not lazy......tho now i sit and watch tv all day.....hahahahha.........

people always say whats inside counts.......i meant i have a personality and yet im sooo single that i think i scare guys away.........hahahahaha...

gtg.........c ya.......

tell me

i love you so much to let you go
i can't bear the thought that you're going
i thought we were meant for each other before
without you next to me i feel like dying

tell me that you love me once
tell me that you cared
tell me that you'll give me another chance
for the times we've been together and shared

i want you to look into my eyes
i want your arms around me
tell me all i heard are stupid lies
and that you want to stay beside me

daym daym.......mana tia yg ku tulis tadi tu????????ngaleh sha ku taip.......weelll.....actually its ok....i don't mind much coz u see...i like typing......but i can't remeber what i wrote juz now....i have short term memory loss.......watever that is.......

soooo.....ahhhhhh...i was telling you people what a great fantastic awesome holiday i had this past few days...NOT!!!!...i was complaining.......hmmm...i watched oprah tadi and they were talking about a "free complaint world".......hmmmm...i was thinking maybe i should like start to not complain....but here i was complaining again......i mean what is life without complaints kan???it wud be soooo dull.......and i wud be ultra weird if everyone started to be freakishly optimistic.......i dun noe........but i knoe i sound like somebody who looks at a glass and say its half empty.....but it depends on what kind of day im having......but actually most of the time i see a glass and say its just totally full....not half empty or even half full......my motto is jgn alang2 bah kan.....

yesterday i went to bandar with my mum and dad see...and we met with this guy who interviewed me for the leadership camp in Sabah...he is from Rotary Club.....sooo...he started to fill us in what they did recently....waht the club did to be exact...and they said they organised a blood drive...and i was like whattheHEll is that??? kalinya once i found out....my rents started to tell me the benefits of donating blood........and i was like till im dead bru tah i want to give my blood...and my mum was like "you cpuld save a life" and i was like there are like 1million other ways to save a life...and when its a persons time to die.....just die....don't susahkan orang lain ok.....hey....dat day i was looking at the glass toatlly empty....why?????coz first my slippers string broke and i was kinda pissed with my dad and all.....soooooooo there.........long story short i was not in a good mood......

ayu u're complaining....
who careS????

hmmm...before..like a few years back i didn't like stepping out of the house....why????coz i was soooo self concious....i looked in the mirror and i see a very ugly me....nothing was right at all......and now....i guess i found the right clothes and i felt normal.....i mean last time my hair was like wrong my clothes felt not right and my feet are like too big......now...hmmm....now is different...but sometimes that ugly side of me wud start bubbling up.......wwellllll....teenage life......veyr confusing and yet its the best time of life....(what am i saying>>)

nyt nyt people...im gonna wallow in my self pity then...and think about my pathetic life....

im sitting here on the floor.....with the lappy on my lap......and mosquitoes biting me...and u wud expect me being outside...but hell no...im in my room......yesh....ada mosquitoes.......those mosquitoes had evolved to becum some freak of nature...adaptation...i mean......this room is cold......really cold...and yet...maseh lage wah nyamuk nie hidup.....ask ppl who stayed in this house...i dun noe why they say my house is usually really cold...macam hspital kan kan...hahahha....

my papa just came back from bangkok yesterday...and he bought like 5 bags fro me...and one them ada muka this celebrity and people guess who...i mean gawd...i nearly fainted......its PAROS HILTON....i mean man....imaine aku pakai d skulah..i wud be DAYm embarassing.....but i wud never tell that to papa....he wud be devastated....but hey its not my fault...i didn asked him to buy any PH bags.....kalau nama nya ngannya i wud accept(maybe) but this is her face!!!!!!!!!....but i am soooooo thankful that he didn buy HILARY DUFF punya muka.....atu mati tarus ku tu..............ahhhahahahahaha.......that is like major embarassment much!!!!!!!
and papa promised to get slipper for me.......i gave him my size and everything...but him being a guy and all...of corz bought the wrong size.....5 slippers small for my huge (with a big H) feet.....hahahahah....soooo....mama had to use all 5 now......lucky her......curse u small footed people......harharhar...
sooo here we were yesterday in mall...........papa being his guilty self promised to buy me peep toe slippers.........and he actually called it slipper yg toe nya terkeluar.......gawd............maaaaaannnn...........guys.....no common sense...mana ada org kai slipper toe nya terkeluar.........

hahhahaha.......gtg.......ngantok ku~~

nytie nytzzz....

sha~~

this picture with the trees is taken from lagoon near my house...not really near lah....at least 5 minutes walk from here......
lawa kan~~...i really lurve the purple lining...it actually beats the usual "silver lining" thingie....its soooooo romantic kan kan...hahah..
at this time ngam2 maghrib...and you would ask what was she doing there time maghrib...di lagoon lage tu...lepak2......jadi setan jap......yesh...i was quite guilty being there that time.........but whattheheck...if i wasn't there i wouldn't have captured this nice moment,yeah???
lurve it lurve it............


and the picture below was taken last year when i just arrived in london.....to be exact,it was in cranfield...my sis's place for now......i was alone in my sis's room nothing to do...so i went to look out her window...wanted to absorb the secnery...kale nya....apa kan d liat!!!!nothing...and it was just 4 pm........... terkezzut gue........i was like,am i dreaming or was my watch being its "crack" self..............then it occured to me that,heL-Lo ayu,it was winter time!!and it was soooo cold!!!! *hit self on head* like duuhhh...nam nya winter.....inda kan panas........well,to tell yah people the truth i expected S-N-O-W!!............p unlucky me.......no snow for little old me!!!sadih ku to the max!!!!!

well....got to go....mamam...ehe

na...na...na...~~

lalalala....im just the girl next door.....yeah yeah...........*singing*
wait.....im not a girl next door...there's no one next door......weeellll...not really.......*watever ayu~~*

gawsh...help me!!...i have never send a postcard in my WHOLE life.........i mean...what is the use of the oh-so-cool-and-fast internet kan kan..........yesh~...here i was sitting in front of my desk......confused and puzzled and thinking what to write to a person who knows nothing about your country and me,knowing nothing about theirs........
FOR GOODNESS SAKE,i have never ever send anything through mail!!!snail mail that is.....sowe sowe..i knoe you all are like...what the hell is she talking about.....nada....i just wanted to start doing something useful in my short teenage life.........haha.....i knoe you all are still like...whatthef*ck is she writing about........hmmmm...biar tia dulu.....if its "working" for me...then i'll keep you people posted......

buhbye for now.....