i am waaaaaayyyy bored sampai i am reading "reader's digest" and Borneo Bulletin while waiting for this slow download....
and i found an interesting article....interesting and sooooo disturbing,if i may say so myself....by Borneo Blletin
it's about this daughter, held prisoner by her own father in their basement from when she was 18 years old til now, she's like 42 years old...imagine not having to see daylight for more that 20 years......
and being raped and abused by your own father who is supposed to protect her, not to harm her.......
it happened in Austria, and it sounds far away, like it would never happen here in Brunei, i hope it doesn't, cause it would be the worst nightmare ever....
and imagine the girl has 7 children with him.....gawwwwddd!!!what a life.....it feels like a story told to only scare but it is true!!aaarrrrggghhhhh.....imagine the horror......what must she felt???living in a basement for 20 yrs....living in a confined place....with 3 of her children...
and her mother...saying that she doesn't noe anything about this....gawd...YOUR OWN DAUGHTER IS LIVING UNDER YOUR FEET AND U SAY DAT U DUN NOE ANYTHING ABOUT IT.....dat is like plain bullshit,dun u think.....
what kind of mother cudn FEEL her daughter in danger....what happened to mother's intuition or whatever???
or maybe she genuinely doesnt noe.....isnt she suspicious a bit???of the husband or the situation?????
like if my parents were told that i ran away....*well if my parents were told that i ran away....i think they would be happy...not to have to feed another mouth...hahahaah*
aneeway...i think my rents wud do sumthing about me....at least find for me...right???i hope sooo......
the article gave me the heeby-jeebies.....like kambang bulu ku to the max!!eeerrrggghhh.......takot plang ku reading it...but curiosity got the better of me and i read til the end....
even the neighbours do'nt noe a thing......
is the father too cunning to be revealed????clever?????can u even call that intelligence??all the prisoning and lies....gawd...what kind of human being is he????not even an animal would do such thing...even animals have a bit of compassion for their own children or whatever.....aaarrrggghhhh......
scareee.....what a scareee outside world.......
all the different types of weirdos and psychos living in planet earthh....
scareeeeee.....
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
past my bedtime...
hmmmm......yonne punya pasal nie i can't get my shut eye...huhuhuhu...
i cudnt stop laughing even after messaging with her....UNBELIEVABLE kale ahhhh..!!hahahaha.....like shocking pun ada....ooowwwwhhhhh...
cudn believe he wants to kol me....like WTH!!hahahaha...
and the time, it is waaaaayyyy past my bedtime kale ahhh.....walaupun murah after midnight....hahahaha...
wonder what he wud say....hmmmmmmmm.....
lets wait and see....atupun if i do get to pick up his kol.....like if i sleep, i will sleep waaaaayyyyyyyyy "mati tidur" kale ahhhh......
nvm.......
cheap thrill banar wah nie...hahahahaha.....tidak apa.....
*trying to open facebook.....lambat like hell.....*
later....
labs labs...
i cudnt stop laughing even after messaging with her....UNBELIEVABLE kale ahhhh..!!hahahaha.....like shocking pun ada....ooowwwwhhhhh...
cudn believe he wants to kol me....like WTH!!hahahaha...
and the time, it is waaaaayyyy past my bedtime kale ahhh.....walaupun murah after midnight....hahahaha...
wonder what he wud say....hmmmmmmmm.....
lets wait and see....atupun if i do get to pick up his kol.....like if i sleep, i will sleep waaaaayyyyyyyyy "mati tidur" kale ahhhh......
nvm.......
cheap thrill banar wah nie...hahahahaha.....tidak apa.....
*trying to open facebook.....lambat like hell.....*
later....
labs labs...
Monday, April 28, 2008
monday blues....
heeeemmmmm...lama dah na blogging...hahahaha....malas wah kan tunggu brunet nie connecting connecting....very imaptient person kale ah ayu nie.....hehehe....
mondaysssss........nothing much.....
NOTHING MUCH????hahahaha....there is never nothing in my life......
let's start from today's morning.....
yonne told me about akmal...ssshhhh...that was supposed to be a secret...hahahaha...astaga......like, everyone noes.....*not really*..
erm then our morning meeting rah H4....hahahaha....keep up with gossips....
i loved sharon's story....hahahaha...wish i was at the SAS Fun Day or watever u call it.....hahaha.........
*intervention*
ooowwwhhh...every time i hear "brunei" in the malaysian news or any overseas news i wud be like surprised....cudn believe brunei's name wud get out of brunei...noe wat i mean...hahahahah......
i am soooo bored that i am watching news right now...kes terpaksa coz inda lama g like government interview...huhuhuhuhu.....
i am sooooo sooooo sooooo worried bout my bm......cam juz now mum and I were like practicing my BM....and at first i sounded like org iban....then like cina sesat then like indon....hahahahaha......nasib lah inda kuar my "yandeke padeya"...hahahahaha......
*back to main*
and i missed the battle of the band and looking for Sharon's new jodoh....hahahahaha.........Sharon Sharon Sharon...laku ko nie....ish ish......
and yet inda ko mao c "shekshi"....hahahaha.....think of the future.....
ooowwwhhh....guess wat i did yesterday....
i was like drawing up a plan for my allowance if i do get to scottie.....
and i found out, i actually dun have much.....
mum said straight out that they will not afford to send me money...hahahahaha......
cian cian cian........
and i asked her what wud be the solution and she said "part time job"
at first i was excited to be a waitress...hahahah....i kinda find waitressing fun or whatever...in movies lah...hahahah...
but then she said,"mana ada drg kan take u for waitressing.....cuci tapak adalah..." *tapak = plate*...huhuhhuhuhuhu......
and despite of her un-encouragement, i still fantasize my "potential" dream PART TIME JOBS....
1) waitressing - still find it "sexy"...thot of waitressing excite me......overseas lah...not in brunei....hahahahahaha
2)singing - hahahaha..i said fantasizing ah....so give me chance to actually FANTASIZE okay....
3)teach violin - eventhough i actually suck in playing myself....
4)journalist - waaaaaahhhhh......part of my dream job....actually getting paid to write....i cud do that the rest of my life....
5)assistant vet - imagine working with animals.....waaaaaaahhhhhhh.....what a thought...*smile smile*
6)working in a book store - gaaaaawwwdddd......imagine working in a place full of books....*geeky thoughts*....
gila.......now thinking of everything makes me soooo excited.....what wud life be like for me.....
to tell u the truth i can't actually picture myself in 5 yrs time.....not even 6 month's time.....heeeeemmmmmmm.....
have not felt myself maturing......still not thiking of my future.....not even a glimpse of it....all i can think of is my future WALK-IN CLOSET!!!imagine all the shoes i can fit in it.....wwwwwwwwwoooooowwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!
shoes.....here i come!!!!!!! ;)
mondaysssss........nothing much.....
NOTHING MUCH????hahahaha....there is never nothing in my life......
let's start from today's morning.....
yonne told me about akmal...ssshhhh...that was supposed to be a secret...hahahaha...astaga......like, everyone noes.....*not really*..
erm then our morning meeting rah H4....hahahaha....keep up with gossips....
i loved sharon's story....hahahaha...wish i was at the SAS Fun Day or watever u call it.....hahaha.........
*intervention*
ooowwwhhh...every time i hear "brunei" in the malaysian news or any overseas news i wud be like surprised....cudn believe brunei's name wud get out of brunei...noe wat i mean...hahahahah......
i am soooo bored that i am watching news right now...kes terpaksa coz inda lama g like government interview...huhuhuhuhu.....
i am sooooo sooooo sooooo worried bout my bm......cam juz now mum and I were like practicing my BM....and at first i sounded like org iban....then like cina sesat then like indon....hahahahaha......nasib lah inda kuar my "yandeke padeya"...hahahahaha......
*back to main*
and i missed the battle of the band and looking for Sharon's new jodoh....hahahahaha.........Sharon Sharon Sharon...laku ko nie....ish ish......
and yet inda ko mao c "shekshi"....hahahaha.....think of the future.....
ooowwwhhh....guess wat i did yesterday....
i was like drawing up a plan for my allowance if i do get to scottie.....
and i found out, i actually dun have much.....
mum said straight out that they will not afford to send me money...hahahahaha......
cian cian cian........
and i asked her what wud be the solution and she said "part time job"
at first i was excited to be a waitress...hahahah....i kinda find waitressing fun or whatever...in movies lah...hahahah...
but then she said,"mana ada drg kan take u for waitressing.....cuci tapak adalah..." *tapak = plate*...huhuhhuhuhuhu......
and despite of her un-encouragement, i still fantasize my "potential" dream PART TIME JOBS....
1) waitressing - still find it "sexy"...thot of waitressing excite me......overseas lah...not in brunei....hahahahahaha
2)singing - hahahaha..i said fantasizing ah....so give me chance to actually FANTASIZE okay....
3)teach violin - eventhough i actually suck in playing myself....
4)journalist - waaaaaahhhhh......part of my dream job....actually getting paid to write....i cud do that the rest of my life....
5)assistant vet - imagine working with animals.....waaaaaaahhhhhhh.....what a thought...*smile smile*
6)working in a book store - gaaaaawwwdddd......imagine working in a place full of books....*geeky thoughts*....
gila.......now thinking of everything makes me soooo excited.....what wud life be like for me.....
to tell u the truth i can't actually picture myself in 5 yrs time.....not even 6 month's time.....heeeeemmmmmmm.....
have not felt myself maturing......still not thiking of my future.....not even a glimpse of it....all i can think of is my future WALK-IN CLOSET!!!imagine all the shoes i can fit in it.....wwwwwwwwwoooooowwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!
shoes.....here i come!!!!!!! ;)
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
hem hem hem......
i noe im late posting bout the prom/dinner/watever fucking thing u all call it. coz i dun care watever u call it, coz i had a BLAST dat day....
i had real FUN!unlike most people.....
i dn get why people complain too much about it..coz i think it went well...not that i am one of the commitees or watever...
it wasn't that bad.....some people said it was better than other proms they've been to...
i have to think of my frenz for making it a day to remember..not including so-called frens who complains behind my back and writing bad exaggerating things in their blogs. u noe who u are...
i think u have to blame urself for making that day boring for urself. not cooperating and having a good time. please lah. cud u all pls look past the bad stuff and at least peek through the good stuff that day coz i noe there were tons and tons of great things that day.
dun linger on complaining about food...or bands...
talking bout food...why not berabut berabut like evryone else. hahahahaha...and to those who got to eat, next time dun be so selfish,like taking banyak2 makanan but inda d abiskan...think of others.....
and dancing...i did dance......it was fun....if u all complain about dancing why not u all WALK to the dance floor like everyone else...inda payah kan kame kan like menjemput kamu ke dancefloor!
and the deco was EXCELLENT!!! the place was great...it was not a bloody storeroom at all.........paloi kale org atu yg ingatnya that place looked like a storeroom!
gawd are u dat thick not to knoe what a storeroom is.....
i think if kamu kan transform a place like that i think u cudn have dun a great job like we did!!i think if u were the to deco i think it wud look worst than a storeroom kale!
and to azrina, sharon, alvin, zatie, akmal and everyone that i am thinking about rite now, thanks for the songs...i will always remember it and it was daym SWEET of u all!!!
thanks for a great time owhkay.....wpun before the prom nite we were all stressed out and snapping each other around...that's becoz we wanted everything to work out well ryt...and i think we did a good job.......clap to selves!!!
p.s. i am still here...hahahaha...lama lage im going kale ahhhh......so u all r still stuck with me for some time....hehehehe
labs u all!!!!!!!!!!!!
i had real FUN!unlike most people.....
i dn get why people complain too much about it..coz i think it went well...not that i am one of the commitees or watever...
it wasn't that bad.....some people said it was better than other proms they've been to...
i have to think of my frenz for making it a day to remember..not including so-called frens who complains behind my back and writing bad exaggerating things in their blogs. u noe who u are...
i think u have to blame urself for making that day boring for urself. not cooperating and having a good time. please lah. cud u all pls look past the bad stuff and at least peek through the good stuff that day coz i noe there were tons and tons of great things that day.
dun linger on complaining about food...or bands...
talking bout food...why not berabut berabut like evryone else. hahahahaha...and to those who got to eat, next time dun be so selfish,like taking banyak2 makanan but inda d abiskan...think of others.....
and dancing...i did dance......it was fun....if u all complain about dancing why not u all WALK to the dance floor like everyone else...inda payah kan kame kan like menjemput kamu ke dancefloor!
and the deco was EXCELLENT!!! the place was great...it was not a bloody storeroom at all.........paloi kale org atu yg ingatnya that place looked like a storeroom!
gawd are u dat thick not to knoe what a storeroom is.....
i think if kamu kan transform a place like that i think u cudn have dun a great job like we did!!i think if u were the to deco i think it wud look worst than a storeroom kale!
and to azrina, sharon, alvin, zatie, akmal and everyone that i am thinking about rite now, thanks for the songs...i will always remember it and it was daym SWEET of u all!!!
thanks for a great time owhkay.....wpun before the prom nite we were all stressed out and snapping each other around...that's becoz we wanted everything to work out well ryt...and i think we did a good job.......clap to selves!!!
p.s. i am still here...hahahaha...lama lage im going kale ahhhh......so u all r still stuck with me for some time....hehehehe
labs u all!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, April 11, 2008
to those yg berkenaan....*ngam kah??*
I am supposed to have my shut eye right now coz I dunnot want to look like some sickly looking girl…
Nway, to jee….why tym chatting ko ckp “I have to apologise to u first” or sumthing like dat….cam tkajot jua ku tu…..eerrmmm…salah antar ka or wat????ngam2 jua d ebuduh nie cam LAME!!aarrggghhh….ssoooooo, apa ceta???sal I cannot log in rah ebuduh to the max nie….
Oowwwhhh…to celez, I am going to kuching before going away…..sooo….ada tah chance kita jumpa before me leaving….dun worry….hehehehe….i definitely wanna check out THE SPRING…..hahahaha…sooooo, we can like meet there….awal planning ayu ahh…hahahaha…..
And to Chriz, kenapa lah sial banar cuti mu nie…cam tym aku d bndr ko d lumut….aaarrggghhh….daym shitness!!!*new word* stoopid hols schedule…..sasak eyh!!
Aaannnndddd…to azrina, aku mao emailc naty or netty or however she spell her name…coz aku cam kan contact sal ya bout Scottie….hahaha….semangat nye ayu nie….msg me or whatever when u read dis….malas ku msg ko ahh…jauh hp ku…ahakz…..
laaabbbssss u all...
Nway, to jee….why tym chatting ko ckp “I have to apologise to u first” or sumthing like dat….cam tkajot jua ku tu…..eerrmmm…salah antar ka or wat????ngam2 jua d ebuduh nie cam LAME!!aarrggghhh….ssoooooo, apa ceta???sal I cannot log in rah ebuduh to the max nie….
Oowwwhhh…to celez, I am going to kuching before going away…..sooo….ada tah chance kita jumpa before me leaving….dun worry….hehehehe….i definitely wanna check out THE SPRING…..hahahaha…sooooo, we can like meet there….awal planning ayu ahh…hahahaha…..
And to Chriz, kenapa lah sial banar cuti mu nie…cam tym aku d bndr ko d lumut….aaarrggghhh….daym shitness!!!*new word* stoopid hols schedule…..sasak eyh!!
Aaannnndddd…to azrina, aku mao emailc naty or netty or however she spell her name…coz aku cam kan contact sal ya bout Scottie….hahaha….semangat nye ayu nie….msg me or whatever when u read dis….malas ku msg ko ahh…jauh hp ku…ahakz…..
laaabbbssss u all...
laaa..laaa....
owh gawd!!....i am sasak-ing here with this internet connection....cam bage sakit ati waaaahhhh........tidak apa....saya bage ini connection one more chance.....cam i still can't chat since like 2 hrs ago...*exaggerating*...hahahaha..
aneeway......we had briefing again with RBA.....and it was owhkay....kana bage offer letter sha and the RBA people buat briefing lah...like duh~~....
and we exchanged no. coz esok we decided to have our medical check all together...
i am daym nervous coz i noe tomorrow invloves long thin scary needles!!AAAARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH.........
i remembered my last injection which was like 3 yrs ago. and i was like daym nervous that i had to bring chriz and yonne to the hospital with me....for morale support!!my own cheerleader....how sweet!!ahakz.....love both of u to the max!
owh gawd...i am gonna miss u all if ever i get out of this country....cam i can't believe i have to be an ADULT....which is sooooo unlike me....and INDEPENDENT lage tu.....which are two words not in my dictionary....ahakz....
i guess i have to make certain sacrifices lah kan......hhhhmmmmm........*sob sob*
owh gawd...sasakku ku ebuduh anie...like open already....i have been waiting for like hundred years.....ngaleh kale aaaahhhh.....arrrgghh..sasak!!!.....*annoying ayu*...
YAY DAPAT......krg g blogging.....i am chatting nie...hahahaha....*mao2 gto ayu nie*
aneeway......we had briefing again with RBA.....and it was owhkay....kana bage offer letter sha and the RBA people buat briefing lah...like duh~~....
and we exchanged no. coz esok we decided to have our medical check all together...
i am daym nervous coz i noe tomorrow invloves long thin scary needles!!AAAARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH.........
i remembered my last injection which was like 3 yrs ago. and i was like daym nervous that i had to bring chriz and yonne to the hospital with me....for morale support!!my own cheerleader....how sweet!!ahakz.....love both of u to the max!
owh gawd...i am gonna miss u all if ever i get out of this country....cam i can't believe i have to be an ADULT....which is sooooo unlike me....and INDEPENDENT lage tu.....which are two words not in my dictionary....ahakz....
i guess i have to make certain sacrifices lah kan......hhhhmmmmm........*sob sob*
owh gawd...sasakku ku ebuduh anie...like open already....i have been waiting for like hundred years.....ngaleh kale aaaahhhh.....arrrgghh..sasak!!!.....*annoying ayu*...
YAY DAPAT......krg g blogging.....i am chatting nie...hahahaha....*mao2 gto ayu nie*
Monday, April 7, 2008
the holi holidaaaaayyyy.......
it is already the 2nd week of skul...but, i still would like to rekindle what i did during my school hols. and i know it's not much and not what others consider to be "fun", but i find what i did, to be rather "ayu-like" you know....hahaha
spring cleaning cum bubbles-bubbles everywhere...hahahaha......
pedicure, here i come!....my fave time of ANY day....being pampered, which hurt quite a bit coz i have not had my toes done for quite some time....huhuhu....
vroooooommmm...vrooooommmm........hahahahaha.....
awie and ziana zain brunei......
winding walkway of UBD...i love walking along them....makes the place feel bigger...hahahaha....
went to ubd with chriz and this time when i took the photo was when i had to wait for her.....she was in class....but nvrmind......i kept myself busy, being an outsider....hahaha..."exchange student"....
sleepy max.....the most hyperactive cat ever!!!
but now he is asleep thank gawd!!...isn't he sweet??????
he had quite an adventure that day...him being curious coz of his first journey from bandar to KB...hahahah.....and his first in a car......soooo bising.....!!!
will post 2nd part later......laabbbbsss....
spring cleaning cum bubbles-bubbles everywhere...hahahaha......
pedicure, here i come!....my fave time of ANY day....being pampered, which hurt quite a bit coz i have not had my toes done for quite some time....huhuhu....
vroooooommmm...vrooooommmm........hahahahaha.....
awie and ziana zain brunei......
winding walkway of UBD...i love walking along them....makes the place feel bigger...hahahaha....
went to ubd with chriz and this time when i took the photo was when i had to wait for her.....she was in class....but nvrmind......i kept myself busy, being an outsider....hahaha..."exchange student"....
sleepy max.....the most hyperactive cat ever!!!
but now he is asleep thank gawd!!...isn't he sweet??????
he had quite an adventure that day...him being curious coz of his first journey from bandar to KB...hahahah.....and his first in a car......soooo bising.....!!!
will post 2nd part later......laabbbbsss....
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