to her with love....

i miss my mummy....eventhough she just left for Kuching yesterday...
i feel like crying...TO THE MAX!!!!
i dunnoe why but i feel like a loser...and i am disappointed of myself.....
i need my mummy....
i just realsied that i like talking to her and bitching with her about people in school.....
she is my BITCH-ing FRIEND at home....
fill her with gossips and she will be the happiest person...
i am waaaaaaaaayyy pouting right now....
my mum would never say "stop crying" eventhough she will laugh that i cry over silly things.....
i just realsie i dunnoe what i'd do if she's not there for me to talk with...
and i really need her now....
i feel like a TOTAL failure.....
d dissapoitment from last year came back and haunts me now....
eventhough i told everyone i was OK, but i was not....
i AM stil not....
i know nothing will ever happen to her...she is SUPER MOM!!
she and my grandmother are SUPER...not HUMAN BEINGS....
i can't imagine them not being here....


OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG....

what am i saying???????delete everything.......every word....i sound like someone is dying and nobody is.....
i am ooovveeeerrrr dramatic...
and just yesterday azrina called me dramatic.......
i AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am feeling like a little lost girl finding for her mummy....

and yet when she is there, standing in front of me..........
she just plain annoys me......... ;)