no voice...hahaha

i think i have permanently damaged my vocal cords....

i have no more voice....PERIOD!!

the last straw for me was when i shouted at my brother 2 minutes ago for nagging me about the laptop....
u know, the usual...."its my turn....nooooo....its my turn" kinda stuff.....

sudah tah i was screaming my head off during orientation....the WHOLE 3 days!!
coz first of all, i love shouting......at people....duh~~....
second of all, my group bangang if they are not screamed at....
and also, during dancing.........i cannot believe a human being can scream as loud and at a long period as i can......hahahahaha......
i know it annoys loads of people, and i am not sorry about it.....
but the thing is....it WAS WAAAAAAAAAAYYYY FUUUNNNN YESTERDAY!!!!
i have to pat myself on back for having a great time.....*dun ask me why i am patting myself... :)*
now i am officially called a "stripper" by azrina.....and according to affy, i dance like "water".....dun ask me what dat means, coz i have no freaking idea!!hahahaha...
and at least, iman called me "tata young or jessica alba"......
GAWD!!i have MOVES!!!!!hahahahahahaha......ayu perasan TO THE MAX!!!

i sound like a toad...trying to croak as loud as i can, and believe me, it is still loud!!hahaha...

i still have not received any pics yet.........BOO HOO ME!!!!!

1st day of orientation.....

taken after us playing with glitter at my house.....
and the finished banner........

aaahhhhh....my nidji.....that was what i liked to call my juniors......
they look soooo "cute" kan with their crowns.....*sob sob*
proud of myself....hahahahaha

me and yonne....on our first day of ori........
maseh lage excited dat time...hahahaha

my nidji girls and me......heheheheheh......

i would have liked to post today's last day of orientation but i have none of the pics.......they are with azrina or yonne......
watever.....

c ya........*loooooonnnggg yawn*

i am waaaaaayyyy stumped....way past stumped....
i am like half blur half lost.....

tell me,
WAT IS THE SIMILARITY BETWEEN A CROWN AND THE INDON BAND GROUP NIDJI?????

nidji......crown....

nidji......crown....

nidji......crown....

owhkaayyyy....watever.....
i am like raking my brain and i have gone to nothing...
crowns as nametags are waaaaayyy cute, but for sumthing that is associated with a band?????
ADUI!!!!!!!mcm......APAKAN!!!!!
nevermind......it is gonna be embarassing for the juniors....
and it is hilarious........banar!!...hahahahaha....u should have seen us trying to measure "the average circumference of a head".....mcm, everyone's head kana "pinjam".....*ayu exaggerating*.....hahahahaa.......

BOOM....BOOM.....BOOM...to infinity...and beyond...

SHUT THE F*CK UP ALREADY.......
i sooooo am gonna kill my neighbours.....
their firecrackers are killing me and i am sooooo gonna be deaf if i hear any more "bang"-ing and "boom"-ing.....
my house's roof is practically shaking and i can't even hear myself thinking....MY GAWD!!!

i feel like there's a war outside and it actually frightens me........
and it is annoying.......and my heart's like pounding, mcm the solo drum of some rock band kale......hahaha...

it has stopped at last.....



OMG!!!!start tia lage....and the sound is like even more high-pitched that before....
it has been "crack"-ing for like half and hour, the bunga api i mean....

but the thing is, the patterns are sooooo impressive and the sound....all of them sounds different.......

talk about rich!!!i would never "burn" my money on something that annoys people....talk bout being selfish!!

less than a day....

i was sooooo excited today....
i planned tons and tons of things with my friends.....
i was gonna have lots of fun tomorrow...but all of that was lost in mere seconds...
i knoe i sound like someone ungrateful, but i am not....it just happened too fast...huhuhuhuhu....
actually ramai orang will come to my house tomorrow and we were gonna have a "nametag party"....where the MPV groups were gonna make the orientation nametags at my house...yeah i know, sounds so much fun.....and then everyone's gonna like go to school at 2 sama sama...........
BUT INDA LAGE!!!

i have to study.....i have to learn bout tools and engines and brakes and yada yada....in just a few hours coz tomorrow i'll be sitting for the written test!

OMG OMG OMG!!
i could notbelieve it;s gonna be tomorrow.....
how time flies.......

i have no freaking idea how a car runs and what happens when it brakes....until now.....
(and i am soooo gonna take the easiest explanation...hahahaha)

"how does a car runs???
This is a huge answer, so I'll give you the short version. The engine creates the power than turns the transmission gears. The transmission turns the drive shaft that is connected to the axle gear which rotates the axle that holds the wheels.

You control the gear shifting (manual) or the trans controls them automatically. When you press down on the accelerator pedal that opens the fuel valve than allows more combustion (power) to your engine. The more the power, the faster you go."

of course i only googled the answers......malas kan bwat sendiri.....
OMG! i am daym nervous and i snapped at my mum on the phone tadi, coz she was like, "muat kan baju mu masih??" and i was like, "what do YOU think??" and i added that i do not have any shoes, and she was like, "cari lah!" and i was like, "ayu pakai kasut sekolah ajak lah!" and she did not say anything......
and i was like, "ayu online dolok...."
and she was like, "bah!" and the phone went dead......

hahahahahahhaa....
i am NOT guilty......i dun feel guilty...
i have the right to snap at anybody......and that person was she....too bad.....

AAAAAARRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

i do not know what to do with the orientation, the emblem and the bloody nametags......

at least i got to eat sushi with dorang onne and celez and azrina and sharon.....
that's one up thing for today....huhuhuhuu........

to her with love....

i miss my mummy....eventhough she just left for Kuching yesterday...
i feel like crying...TO THE MAX!!!!
i dunnoe why but i feel like a loser...and i am disappointed of myself.....
i need my mummy....
i just realsied that i like talking to her and bitching with her about people in school.....
she is my BITCH-ing FRIEND at home....
fill her with gossips and she will be the happiest person...
i am waaaaaaaaayyy pouting right now....
my mum would never say "stop crying" eventhough she will laugh that i cry over silly things.....
i just realsie i dunnoe what i'd do if she's not there for me to talk with...
and i really need her now....
i feel like a TOTAL failure.....
d dissapoitment from last year came back and haunts me now....
eventhough i told everyone i was OK, but i was not....
i AM stil not....
i know nothing will ever happen to her...she is SUPER MOM!!
she and my grandmother are SUPER...not HUMAN BEINGS....
i can't imagine them not being here....


OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG....

what am i saying???????delete everything.......every word....i sound like someone is dying and nobody is.....
i am ooovveeeerrrr dramatic...
and just yesterday azrina called me dramatic.......
i AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am feeling like a little lost girl finding for her mummy....

and yet when she is there, standing in front of me..........
she just plain annoys me......... ;)

gambar from rizqun and such.......hehehe....

gone with the wind.......

i lost money today...
sounds like i lost from gambling pulang....hahahaha...
no lahh....i lost my money from my wallet....
wooooowww....magic huh....
i guess it was part my fault and i don't it to be part of my fault coz i'll feel extra extra grumpy and mad at myself...
i dun even noe the exact amount, but for me it was A LOT!!!
i did not report to any "higher authorities" if u wanna call them a.k.a. teachers, coz at first i thought it was a joke....
how childish of me...
i mean it is BRUNEI for gawd's sake! nobody steals money from anybody, or so i thought.......
and i dun blame anyone, and dat makes me EXTREMELY grumpy...
coz i blame myself...
i am not mad at dat sumbody who took it...
but i cannot believe how that somebody could steal and sleep soundly.....and even use that money without guilt!!
weeeelllll....there goes that cute shoes from charles and keith and goodbye curly wurly hair!!!WAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!i shud have buy those beauties days ago...but nooooooo...i had to wait...
and azrina.....no ESCAPADE for now laaahhh.....have to save more!
and i have a dress to make and a month worth of manicures....*exaggerated the manicure part*.....
i am MAD!!!!!!!
good night.........

bbq on sunday....for CNY and yada yada....

the jellies made by my mum and my sis.....it was my sis's idea to make jellies.....dun ask me why....
at first it seemed like any usual ideas of hers....u noe, her and her baking and cooking watever....but then i joined in her mood....
it was fun......weeellllll, all i did was like cut out shapes using the "cuan" or whatever u call it....and the shapes were all soooooo cute, eventhough i couldnot make out the shapes at first...hahahaha...for example, there was one which was actually a pineapple, but then i was like, "oh my gawd...i can't believe there's a tombstone shaped "cuan"......and my mum was like.."where???" and then she laughed and she told me it was actually a pineapple....hahahahahahahaha....it really looked like a tombstone....and it was NOT my fave shape, let me tell u.... ;)


aaaaaahhhh~~...."U ARE THE APPLE OF MY HEART"...hahaha...eventhough it was supposed to be apple of my eye, but watever......swweeeeettt...ain't it???hehehehe.....and i love the colour.....hehehehehe.....we were going for a valentine's motive....coz, HEL-LO...valentine's inda lama lage....OMG!!i shud do sumthing for my lalenkz...esp Yonne....hmmmm........hehehe...


notice the feet?????halloween motive......i like this shape.....it is soooooo cute...my mum thought at first there were 6 toes and she counted them again and again and she kept on being "in denial", which was funny......hahahaha....greeeeeennn...soooooooo eerie right????


the last but not least.....
the remains of my ginger "jellie" man......it is soooo sad lookig at this picture coz........it kinda died......huhuhuhuhu

let me tell u fro the beginning.....see, for the jellies to really dry and become the "jellies" which were intended to be, it will take 3 days for it to dry perfectly....and us being impatient and stuff, my sis had the idea of putting them in the oven, but at a low temperature...and it would have taken an hour, compared to the 72 hours....hahahaha....u get the picture right???wellll...if u don't, the jellies eventually melt and dissolved into some kind of thick liquid....and my hearts, apples and even my GINGER JELLIE MAN were gone!!!!!!!!!
i was depressed.......we couldnt do anything really, and if there was, a solution or whatever, i would still be depressed....i was grieving......hahahahaha....

at last, we tried the "using the hair dryer" technique....and it was not successful and i gave up half the way...HEL-LO, tiring kale ah holding the noisy hair dryer for nearly half and hour.....by that time if i was drying my hair it would have been burned....hahahahaha...*apakan...an attempt for a lame joke*....
in the end, we had to use the 3-days technique...and now they are in the living room near the air-cond to dry...the jellies that is.....and they are like all jumbled shaped coz kame potong sha kai knife...malas sudah pakai the cuan thingie....ahhahahaa.....

heppie chinese new year!!

i am going to sharon's "open-house" in exactly an hour...and i am still half naked coz i donot noe what to wear.....
i have narowed my clothes to 3...
1. the pink one with grey stripes and have to be layered with something underneath
2. my kimono inspired shirt.......*i noe wat u all are thinking...kimono???on CNY???weird huh*.....WTH!!
3. my simple white long baju.......

annnnnnnnnddddd.....i'll wear one of them with my fave jeans.......the comfy stretchy one.....hehehe

i wanted to use the kimono baju but i am going straight to bandar after sharon's house...and i donot want to use sumthing like that watching movies....so UNCOMFY okaaayyy....and soooooooooo formal looking.....
i am confused...!!!!!..................as usual...
and i seriously donot knoe what to do with my hair....hahahahaha...i was thinking of tying them....antah eyh!!!
i knoe it is not like im going to the prom or whatever...and it is not the end of the world....but whatever.....i like fussing myself with this kinda things.....hehehehe....

oppppzzzz....gtg.....have to think hard on what to wear.....labbbssss.....

fun...funner...funnest....

this was taken during alvin's surprise party......a surprise that did not go really well i must say.....
it was taken arah mirror tampat cuci tangan d ayamku....YES, ayamku.......weird ain't it?????but will not elaborate more on that.....hehe


this was taken from alvin's room...which was seriously BLUE!!!!
the colour which i dislike, soree vin...hahaha....but still cosy... ;)


this was taken under the tree outside of alvin's house...when yonne and i were waiting for alvin's brother to "smash" open the car's door cause yonne locked her keys in...notty notyy yonne...hahahaha.....
at least we had that "trip" bask to seria and azrina was scared of my EXCELLENT driving....hahahaha........
anyone wants driving advise from me????hahahahaha.....
which reminds me of sharon when i was like goyang2kan d car....hahaha...she was screaming like it was the end of the world.....cali cali.....


this was taken d rumah yonne, but we were in the car...DUH~~......and azrina had to lie to yonne's dad that it was her fault the keys were locked in and when yon's dad was talking to azrina, sharon and me were like "praying" for her so-called safety, cause we seriously thought that azrina was scolded...paloi kale....and i grabbed sharon's hands.....i was actually scared for azrina...hahahahahahahahha....paloi kale!!
and i had to drive good on the way back to alvin's house coz yonne's lil sis was following us there..takut ya report rah yonne's dad...inda yonne dpt ikot aku driving lage...hahahahaha...
and sampat lage tipu alvin that we could not come to his party sal had to find yon's dad ke kb..and he actually fell for it...hahahahaha....

just like any other day....

i found my maths textbook at last..hahaha...honestly, it was not me who found it,but my mum...after hours and hours of searching (exaggerated), i asked my mum whether she knows where it was, and she said confidently, "in the car" and i looked and IT WAS THERE!!thank gawd for my mummy!!hahaha...YAY HER!!... :)

and also, i found something else.....and actually it was not me who found it, but kidah.....i found it from her blog...hahahaha....what i am talking about is our form5 class photo.....the informal one.....
i totally forgot about it, and when i saw it, it brought back fond memories of SAS!i love that school to the max.....no place like SAS, i promise you....
and that picture IS the best class photo ever taken (for me)....and kidah, i curi sudah the picture....copy and paste...hahahahahah.....
I LOVE YOU FOR THE PIC!!!!

i think i shud put it here right?????yeaaahhh..that's a good idea......
kajap ahhhhh......





owhhhkkaaayyy...inda dpt....huhuhuhu...
ada sumthing wrong with my copy and paste-ing kale....hahahahha..
plus the stoopid internet connection....huhuhu...