hoho..

i find listening to their tragedies and miseries very amusing..hahahaha! Its just nice knowing that im not the only one suffering..boooo! =')

i am still dumbstruck from looking at my bank account with the 2 horrifying digits...just 2!!!i'll pretend i dunnoe what happened to the money and why is it that sikit!
i just sat down for 10 minutes with wide eyes! terkejuut i...
i was supposed to,i mean planned to go to the city kan bali snacks for breaks next week,kali when i was thinking of what to wear,i saw SALE signs right in front of the house. that's the downside of living IN the city centre.
so the next thing i did after wearing my new sandals,i decided to check my internet banking...KAAALLIIII..i was like!!WTH!!it's true!!it is only 40.11pounds.
so i did the next right thing..i think it is right,i stayed at home,pasal i know if one shop sale,the rest would follow along. and me,i would be ready with my debit card to buy "things i need".

so i cleaned my room to pass the time,kaliii i realised my room WAS bursting...my hangers abis sudah..all used and my tampat gantung baju sudah senget to one side!
i need help!!
i used all my self constrain to not shop but i still do..it's like,when i see this one thing,i would say to myself,i really need this thing,so i HAVE to HAVE it.but when i get back home,maseh ya rah bilikku ampai2....
SAAAADDDD!!!

so now im goona dedicate part of this blog,to the things that i really need and miss and want!!


these two people are the most missed people in my life right now!
with their sarcasm and insensitive remarks,i guess i do need those right now,in my ever boring life..



FOOOODD!!!
i need some food right now..co i am depressed...hahahaha...those doughnuts makes my saliva flow like hell..and the kopitiam food!!i want again!!!nyamaann aahh!!!


and those cupcakes could cheer me right now!!



and HE could definitelyy make me smile right now...HAHAHAHA...
i guess there are some things that could make one not think of money right now...NOT!!i mean seriouslyy,when i think about it,why do i really need all those stuff in my room??*to make me look good~~*..HEHEHE...
on an even serious note,i think my financial crisis right now will not make me bothered or worried or dumbstruck!

i think this post is a streess relief....HAHAHAHAH...

update**

ive been away...NOT!!maybe away in my own dreamland maybe...

well,nothing "WOW"-ish happened these past few weeks..

i had a haircut,nothing drastic,just to make it "rapi"..*his words not mine..
i got my exam results,and i passed all,ALhamdulillah...
went to glasgow...shopped..and found Chicken Cottage...
well,that's about it...
told you nothing much...MUCH???nothing at all u mean..hahaha

but i did burn a BIG BIG BIG hole in my bank account...
now i am BROKE!!!ada 40pounds saja for the next 2 weeks...let's see how i survive!hahaha...

what the hell did i buy sampai im this broke eyh??hmmmmm....
when i have enough everything...and yet everything is still not enough for me...contradiciting???MUCCHH!!
just look at the state of my room...and that's not the half of it...maluunyeee..hehehe



i have a few wishlists though,walaupun i think i bought tons and tons of things and my room is bursting!!!

let's see

1. i want the gorgeous bag from accessorie = 25pounds
2. those sexy sandals from river island = 34.99pounds
3. those killer heels from deichmann = 19.99pounds
4. another pair of hot heels from deichmann = 15pounds

those are the things i want..no no no NEED for now!!hahaha...tunggu tah next next week kalie..i HAVE to have the bag!!i HAVE to!!
owh owh..i promised a person that if im not to jog today,then i cannot buy any of the things above till i do...BOWWHH!!!

talking about exercising,lapar tah ku naaahh....
hehehe...apa ada chance kan lose weight nie???and i hate people saying that i do...then,this will actualy motivate me ===> TO EAT LOADS MORE!!!

arrrggghhh!!

owh owh!

im tredging through dangerous territory!and im getting in deeper and deeper and deeper,i think i will be tangled in it.wont get out in time..i think ive been here before!!get out yu,get out before its too late...

no im not!

fyi,i am not on a fucking hiatus *i wont mind my language*,coz i am forced to be on this so called hiatus which is on a rampage and spreading like wildfire and everyone and everythng is joining in!my internet does not suck anymore ladies and gentlemen,coz it is effinglyy DEAD!!! *waiting for sympathies* gawd!i want to blog so badlyy n keep my blog alive and posting pictures and videos,but all is not well!aku sasak!!!so,i wont be seen online till that thng is back alive,which would probably take another 100+ years!sudah tah lappy ku parai,anie broadband nya lagi!talk about thngs dropping dead wherever i go!but,this is getting ridiculous..i will be fb-ing when i am in class,thank goodness for this old hp of mine!!hugs and kisses!ayu~<3

urghhh!!i cant stand this anymore!!being in this type of situation/condition can make a person go seriouslyy crazyy!kalau orang lain gila jadinya,i dun rely mind u noe,p unfortunatelyy,it is me in it,i am the damsel in deep-shit distress,waitin for some kind of thrill! Please,please,where ever that "prince charming" can be,can someone help me text him or fb him to say i need some help!gawwwwd!im losing my mind,and im fudging aware of it,which actually makes it a lot worse.i am trying to drown all the noise with new songs ive downloaded,but i hate my brain with its divided attention capability!i cant concentrate on only listening to one thng,but i am forced to all the rattles still..buring ku wah buring!!balik2 sma saja..feels like a never ending routine!i feel uber sluggish..mcm all the energy in me makes me become nada energy langsung.like all these weight is pulling me down n down n down!n i am in the hate-you-and-you kind of mood,when i dun even feel that way!i even miss crying my eyes out for no particular reason,coz now I HAVE REASONS TO CRY!!!! I waste my days in a daze..forgot what i did yesterday..what will happen tomorrow..n wat am i doing now??? Should i join d crowd??? Or be a loner in a world of my own,surrounded by familiar strangers??? i guess that is what is written for me on the stones with permanent ink.. Saying yes when im supposed to in this so-called democratic world..but i see the face of Stalin in everyone's face! What am i to do??i am stuck in this web!am i sent here to be a pessimistic?to conform to a life full of "responsible routines"?why does doing the right thng feels shitty?or are we forced to thnk THIS is the right thng??antah eh!now im in a world of my own..and i thnk im gonna stay here for quite sometime.... Bye~

hallee poddir!

im still going online on my trusty handphone!my so-called lifesaver for now,since im checking out some lappies and trying to find a way,to bring back my old one for repair ke brunei lagi.since,reformating or watev its called is so the throatclenchingly mahal!huhu! At least i could still watch some movies on my old one,macam going online sha inda mao.so here i am watching movies from my harddrive.nasib bah ada banyak movies to choose from,kalau inda ill be literally bored to death!! Now mengeluarkn biji mata dpn lappy melyat harry potter!haha!marathon,since i just realise i have all the movies.peminat kalie ah~and daym proud of it.hehe.after watching 27 dresses that is.calie jua ceta atu,though ive seen it thrice!talk about nothing to do!wait~manada nothing to do,pasal after dinner kami liat "MIMPI MANIS" since its the hype for our guys minat dangdut.plus lagi ada selected few yang minat dewi persik,so we ended up watchng that looong drama.and let me tell you,it is addictive,unfortunately!haha!we're just rah episode brapa kah,and it has thousands!!!feels like it that is. =p and ada orang sampai meleleh airliur nya terlalu "asyik" meliat dangdut..ao yo!bahaya waaa!hehehehehehehehehe.will not mention names~~ then,paginya,i mean,before had lunch buffet,liat kekasihku seru,another wanting-to-know-what-happens-next kinda story,interestin jua if u wanna call it that.. Aduh!my fingers chakit from typing from one thng to another,on the verge of cramping.so off i go~hugs and kisses from ayu!!