i actually deleted/edited this post...

i guess i just don;t have the guts to say all the things i want to say..coz i have learned my lesson a looong time ago....flashbacks are a pain in the ass!!!

<---------> yup was that close to breaking apart....

but i guess me being that way is unreasonable and not the right time...

WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME THEN???!!!

can somebody show me a sign?????
can something just jump out of the sky and hit my head so that i know what to do next?????
can a person shout at me at the side of the road "TO GET THINGS STRAIGHT"??!!

or even better...just have a truck run me over then everyhting's dilly dally....

help me up coz i keep on falling even deeper,
hold my hand as the days go darker....