he asked me a simple question..maybe not a serious one,but made me soo emotional..
antah kenapa it made me this way..maybe coz it involves one of the person who i care most,my dad...
i may have answered you the way dat u not want me to...
i said, "i don;t care if you die..."
are you freaking crazeeee???OF COURSE I CARE IF YOU DIE!!!!
but the cause that would make you die from is sooo bullshit,that god had given you a chance...an opportunity to maybe live a longer life...

aduuhh im soree if you dont understand what i am blabbing about...
but all i want to say is i did not cry just now all because of you...
partly,coz u came up with such a question....
coz u made me think of my papa..who is soo far away...who may one day not be able to walk into the house with his silliness,with his so called serious face...
and all because of this white stick..a white stick which kills...
not only him,but the people around him...dying inside...
i may be foolish thinking of this,but we all know someday,a person WILL die...
but im sooo far away....
far away....
far...
away....

and i dont know when his time will be....
im being realistic...
maybe this is not realistic to all of you,but being far from home,and family,you would think of the worst consequences....
anything can happen..
in a blink of an eye...

i miss you....