can't you just let me be???!!!!

i can't stop myself from watching all the HP interviews and reviews and whatnots!
macam addicted to it brabis,one after another,and i cant stop clicking to all the links and stuff.
though all the questions and answers are quite the same,but still they left me fascinated!

anywaaaaayyy,
i gave the movie TWO THUMBS UP!!
and seriouslyy,if i had more thumbs,there would have been more thumb ups!!
and not as a harry potter fan side of view!though i may sound a bit bias~

tapi,when we were watching the movie,i just was mcm kecalian arah this kinda old guy's reactions who sat in front of us. mcm when nobody was laughing,this guy was laughing,real loud!so i just had to laugh at that time,coz he laughed!hahahaha.
he's not that old btw,mcm my dad's age,THAT is for me,quite old.


on a different note,a totally different note,
why do i always feel abandoned,whenever he leaves the house!
OWH MEE GAWWDD!!
am i becoming clingyy???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!"£$%^&*&^%$£"£$%^&*(*&^%$£"£$%^&*&^%$£$%^&*(&^
that felt like a huge slap on the face!like eating my own shyt!!
OWH MEE GAWWDD!!
i AM clingy!a desperate,clingy,controlling freak-ish bitch!!!
maybe i should just slap ME on MYSELF!
that's not a nice feeling,this clingy pathetic feeling!SHHYYYYTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!



owhkaayyy..im done! that last paragraph...i feel like deleting it,but i guess,it will be a reminder of how i am acting now.which is equals to being = PALOIII!


anywayyyy..
i do have to agree on khalid's nick that this is a VERY "non-productive holiday",
maybe our production *okeee that sounds weird* may not be in the same terms,but i feel like i am just wasting away precious time making my ass as big as beyonce's. though not as sexy! HMMMM!!

mataku feels very much the juling.maybe i am staring onto this lappy screen way too long,way too much!
i feel very sleepy and tired brabis,like i havent slept 3 days straight,but i have!i think i sleep too much!maybe that's why i feel this way too!

i miss the OLD MOVIE NIGHTS!
where it is always my task to choose the movies to watch,which i always end up sleeping.HAHAHHAHA. just like winter holiday last year. which does feel like it's all in a different lifetime,how things change in a blink of an eye. sounds like my eyes don't blink that much.
and yes,it does feel a bit lonelyy,sometimes. ALL THE FREAKING TIME!!!!
sasakku eyhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
no wonder i am turning into this clingy monster!!!!!!
i have issues!it's a disease!and it feels like it's even worse that the swine flu,though not as contagious,pasal nobody seems to feel the way that im feeling!
maybe all the lonelyy people shoudl gather around so that it'll feel less lonely.
but i guess,no one's answering my cry for help,so i guess,im alone here!
now THAT feels a lot lonelyy!

i hope the people across the street would start all the singing and fighting and drinking already,at least the silence is broken. but time is still early.
TIME!!!!TIME is not my friend right now!TIME,kau jahat!ngapa kau jahat anie kan???!!!
i have another year in this rotten shithole!
owh yes!right now it feels like a shithole!and that feeling will be there a very very long time!
i feel like going out of this place,but i dun quite like train rides all alone!it gives me alot of time and space to think!macam cana ah?macam u know..gives me time to reflect on all the sadness,and all the loneliness,and being on that train on your own,makes my smile upside down,and it involves money!!
i disapprove of paying on a train ride that makes me feel shitty!sasak ku!!!!
and that "sasak ku" is where i am shouting and in my head,it feels like i am pounding on the wall with just my fists,ngantak2 like crazyy!!

i was just gonna write about my view on the HP movie,but this loooonnngggggggg feelings outbursts happened.so don't mind me!it feels a bit good writing,coz i was on the verge of doing something that i may regret later in time,so writing all this down,is a way better plan!if i could even call it a plan!

orrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
maybe i should just go with the "imgonnaregretthislater" plan.
which sounds like the MOST fun-nest thing ever right now!
now saying that out loud,i mean writing that now,makes my life sounds very BOH-RENG!
but i have to admit it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

which totally reminds me of two people came in and out of my life as easily!
easy banar kah to just pass by macam nada saja??!!
now i am totally on a different "story",so sorry for jumping here and there,my mind is not on its best behaviour right now,kucar kacir,macam cacing kepanasan!

i miss classes,though it's all boring routines and balik2 sama saja everytime,but at least,at the very least i feel normal!if u could even call THAT normal,whatthehellamiblabbingabout???!!!



maybee
maybee
maybee
*this is gonna be a loongg post,im warning you,and im not stopping here!*

maybeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
"you belong with meeeeeee..you belong with meee..."

kenapa lah time cemani anie lah aku mendengar songs that make the situation even worst???!!!!!
like all this time,i can only think of and listen to songs yang depressing and sad!
maybe misery does attract a whole lot more misery!

and now i can;t finish a song,coz i choked up on all the lyrics!


i guess im off....
drowning myself in self pity and all the sorrows in the world~