urghhh!!i cant stand this anymore!!being in this type of situation/condition can make a person go seriouslyy crazyy!kalau orang lain gila jadinya,i dun rely mind u noe,p unfortunatelyy,it is me in it,i am the damsel in deep-shit distress,waitin for some kind of thrill! Please,please,where ever that "prince charming" can be,can someone help me text him or fb him to say i need some help!gawwwwd!im losing my mind,and im fudging aware of it,which actually makes it a lot worse.i am trying to drown all the noise with new songs ive downloaded,but i hate my brain with its divided attention capability!i cant concentrate on only listening to one thng,but i am forced to all the rattles still..buring ku wah buring!!balik2 sma saja..feels like a never ending routine!i feel uber sluggish..mcm all the energy in me makes me become nada energy langsung.like all these weight is pulling me down n down n down!n i am in the hate-you-and-you kind of mood,when i dun even feel that way!i even miss crying my eyes out for no particular reason,coz now I HAVE REASONS TO CRY!!!! I waste my days in a daze..forgot what i did yesterday..what will happen tomorrow..n wat am i doing now??? Should i join d crowd??? Or be a loner in a world of my own,surrounded by familiar strangers??? i guess that is what is written for me on the stones with permanent ink.. Saying yes when im supposed to in this so-called democratic world..but i see the face of Stalin in everyone's face! What am i to do??i am stuck in this web!am i sent here to be a pessimistic?to conform to a life full of "responsible routines"?why does doing the right thng feels shitty?or are we forced to thnk THIS is the right thng??antah eh!now im in a world of my own..and i thnk im gonna stay here for quite sometime.... Bye~