here in perth...

life in perth is not that dull actually...well..considering all the dramas and stories and happenings....
life here is never that boring....
i guess we choose to think that its boring and nothing is here....
well...i did...but the more i think about it....its not that bad....let me tell u that...
we miss brunei and the people in it i guess...and the lifestyle is waayyy different...
i changed...
I've become somebody that i am not accustomed to...
that i am not familiarized with...
but i will get used to the new 'Aayunni Zawanah in no time....i hope...
and i also trust that the people around me will accept me just the way they have accepted the old ayu...
maybe i've grown.....not as grown up as others think i should be...but definitely grown...
i do not wish to change the world...or alter the way it turns...
i do not want to touch people's lives which revolves around the sun and moon...
but i do wish for someone who could change my world....
who could make my world revolves anticlockwise or away from the sun and moon...

and i miss the ayu back in brunei....
i guess i was someone who didint care much what happens to her...all she does is laugh at all the good things and all the mishaps around her...
but she'll cry too at all the good things and mishaps...
she maybe considered one confused and happy go lucky bitch....but she doesnt care...
and she seems to be one hell of a bimbo....but she is clever i guess...
if anything doesn't go her way...she'll make it happen...one way or another...it'll happen....
she also has a way of making people around her feel like she's one of a kind i guess....not that she's arrogant....no-hoo....not that she is superior...never...
and i miss her badly....
she never seems to be a part of me....she looks like a person from a different planet...and just somebody that i happen to come across....
and she seems soooo far away....
can i ever get her back?????is she still in me?????

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i still can't find her...
i'll try again next time then....huuuuu....